Ending Some Things...

We had our very last dance competition in Malad yesterday. It's bitter sweet to see this ending, but my mom and I were talking about it on the ride home and we know that it's time to stop now. But I am sad for those parents and kids that have to decide to conform to what is "norm" in the dancing world. The costumes, music and dance moves are becoming more and more mature and we were almost that little podunk studio that covered a specific niche for those people that felt the same way we did. I have been thinking alot about this since Libby is getting to that age where I want her to start dance if she wants to, but I don't want her to feel like she's giving up something just to have to participate. I guess I'm just old fashioned, but I don't think there's anything wrong with that, I like the feeling that I can have control over what my child particpates and doesn't to an extent. I've seen too many girls who have given up something just to fit in and dance somewhere that's "popular". I hope that there are more people who feel like I do and not the other way.

Been Awhile...

We're doing awesome and I can't believe Nate is almost graduated. He'll technically be done next week with all his papers and then I think he has one final during finals week he has to take. I love that guy and all his hard work for us!!!

I Just Read Another Blog...

and it totally spoke to me. There are days when I just want to throw my child in the street and let her survive and see how she does. Yesterday I was awoken, because Nate is sooo awesome to get up with Libby and let me sleep in during pregnancy months, to a crash and breaking glass of one of our bowls. I realize that Libby is done with her breakfast and instead of telling us she's done, she decides to show us with physical force. Well after wetting my bed and then having Nate clean up the mess, I was composed and calm. Then fast forward 8 hours and she's in my sister in law Emily's room and I find her playing with nail polish, on herself and the carpet. Ok, so that one did not go over well with me and I flew off the handle a little bit and wanted to inflict some pain on the little child that I knew I loved deep down inside, but was hard to love right then. Now to today, she decides that not getting enough yelling and finger-pointing and no-noing from mom was enough, she decides that this morning she's gonna throw that bowl and shatter another one again!!!! I decide that we need some major time apart, I mean half an hour in her crib and away from me while I fume and not do what I have previously mentioned, you know about the street and surviving. I can tell you that motherhood is amazing and I love it, somedays I wonder if it's worth my blood-pressure being so high, but I am amazed at this little person who loves me no matter how much finger pointing and yelling I do at her. I wish I was better, but I know that screwing up and yelling and wanting to inflict pain, not really inflicting pain but wanting, is ok. I have finally let myself know that it's ok to be human. I work to becoming Mother Teresa, but I'm not and really don't want to be anyway, she sounds boring!! Kidding about that last statement. I hope this helps someone else today, because I want to thank Kimber for posting what she had to say.

We Made It Home!!

Come and check out my pictures on facebook, because I still need to go over to my friend's house and figure out the pic thing. It was awesome!!! I want to live there sooo badly. I know how people feel about the water and the greenery and everything. I just want to have 40 or above weather all the time and the rain is my favorite. We don't ever get that in Poky. I definitely don't have a travelling baby, but she loved the beach which is another reason to need to move there. I can't wait to go back and see more of what we missed.

A side note I just found out this morning I'm having a boy.

Totally Stoked for Oregon

We're going to Oregon on Saturday and I can't even wait. I want to be there now, but I will wait the 60 hours or so before we actually get to. I think I'm so excited because it's going somewhere I've never been and seeing things I've never seen and doing something really exciting with people I love. My family is going, mom, dad, Spencer, Mos, Tom and Juliene. I love this group of people and actually think I could spend this entire week with them and not want to throw myself off the second story balcony. I'm just so glad to be getting away from all this chaos surrounding Nate and I right now. We wouldn't even be thinking about going if my awesome and most generous parents weren't paying for the rental house. Sometimes you just feel like you can't get away no matter what circumstance in life and then when you do, you appreciate and hype if up so big it's probably the best vacaction you've had in forever.

New Group I LOVE!!

Listen to the new songs I fell in love with, the name of the group is Vedera and I saw them on the Ellen Show. Enjoy!!

Please help me.

I am trying to download pictures to my blog but I'm retarded and not smarter than the blogger.

Please send you help!!!!