It's been awhile.

I know it's been awhile since I've written but I have had a wicked last month. We found out we are going to have our second baby, but that also brings much sickness and puking. I wish there's a way to have a healthy baby, big stomach and no sick feeling allllll the time. It hasn't been soo bad this time and I actually have some really good days where even though I'm super tired and want to go to bed about 10 minutes I get up I really don't have an intense desire to be ill. Also we bought a '97 Ford Explorer for the winter. It was making me crazy not having even a rear-wheel drive vehicle and skidding all over the roads when they got a teeny bit wet and froze. I turned 27 on December and Libby turned 2 on November 12. We are all getting bigger in this place and I love watching her grow and learn so much. I love birthdays, I wish we really did celebrate half or un-birthdays like in Alice in Wonderland; that movie creeps me out. But the saddest part of this last little bit of time has been my grandpa Landon dying on December 11th. He had a heart-attack then aspirated some throw-up into his lungs and had pneumonia as well. He went without oxygen for about 20 minutes and so if they had revived him he probably wouldn't have had the same sort of life-style as he had before. This is so much better for him, but I honestly don't think I've actually said my good-byes to him or feel any closure. Sometimes you have soo much family around you want to be alone with your thoughts and feelings. The awesome part about family is being able to not only calling and relying on them, but having someone to cry and laugh with about the entire thing. I can't believe I wrote all of that, but it has been harder than I really thought it was. The thing it taught me was that family and every moment is so important and you need to enjoy the time you have, no matter how hard or what trials come your way. The people and family around you is sooooo much more important than anything. Anyway...