No internet.

AAArggh.  All I want is reliable internet at our house.  Oh well I'll have to use Mike and Stace's.

My boy...

has become a pincher.  Yes a little girlie, but he gets that from his father.  While he's feeding he will pinch my boobs.  It really hurts.

On a lighter note, I turned 28 on Tuesday and don't feel any different.  I thought something would happen, like magical cellulite zapping or something but better luck next year!!!

My little Princess!

Libby got to go to the Princess Tea at the Festival of Trees for her birthday.  My mom took her, so she dressed up like a princess and had a princess fashion show and she was soooo excited.  She danced with "princesses" and so obviously by the look on her face she had the time of her life.

Just some old times...

When we did Relay for Life in 2008.  Libby was like 8 months old.  It was sooo much fun and it made me think of my Aunt Terry who died that year too.  Love Aunt Terry.

Harrison is offically a blessed baby.

Sunday we had Harrison's baby blessing and it was one of those moments that you know that God looks out for us and loves us soo much.

Nathan says it's the scariest of all the priesthood ordinations you do because it's in front of the ward and family, but the blessing was so beautiful. 
Heavenly Father blessed him with health and strength, to have a strong testimony of the gospel, to choose good friends that he can influence for good and they will influence him as well; to have a desire to be baptized, go on a mission and be married in the temple.

I love our little boy and there will be pics coming soon, but our computer and internet are dumber than a box of rocks, so I can only give updates for now.

Just wanted to say...

To my Heavenly Father, how grateful I am for all the experiences here on earth I have been blessed with. 

More to come soon.

Harrison Jess Coffin

Soooo, we had our baby.  HE'S SO CUTE!!!  I forget how instant the connection to a little person is, how you love him and you've always known him for some reason or another.  That he was just with Heavenly Father, and I'm sure he's visited often, and now he's here with you.  The work of 2 kids is a hard adjustment, but I was ready, probably a little too ready and should've done is sooner, but it's awesome. 

Now it's not all fun and games, we had a rough day on Thursday.  Libby had a terrible day, starting with the fact that for the 4th time she has wiped poop all over her crib and herself and then decides that she's going to cry and throw tantrums for the rest of the night.  Now she has been so good with Harrison, mauls him and kisses him and wants to hold him and love him, but I think she was getting the jealous bug a little and wanted some reactions from us.  Which I'm sorry to say I gave the wrong attentions and started yelling and pulling hair out of my head and fun stuff like that.  It's not so much getting used to 2 kids, it's getting used to the fact that you have to control your temper even when you're totally sleep-deprived and want to sleep all day like you did with the first one.

I love it though I'm learning that prayer in the morning and scripture reading in the morning, before my kids get up, are essential to my sanity and theirs.  Heavenly Father has blessed us and I'm grateful beyond words.

Spencer my brother is the cutest with him; kisses him, hugs him and can't take his eyes off of him.  I love the way babies make you act, you're kinder, gentler and all around better person, and in my case, mother.  I'm so grateful to my Heavenly Father for giving us that gift of love when a baby comes.

Blessings...

We had the best lesson today about the priesthood in relief society.  We talked about the calming and needful power it is to making our homes a safe one from Satan.

Then Nate gave me a blessing today of comfort and counsel, before the baby comes tomorrow.  I am soooo grateful it is to have an amazing priesthood holder that is worthy and can teach our son how to live and uphold his priesthood.

I have so many blessings in my life.

Another baby's coming...

I know I keep blogging about another baby coming, but I'm just so excited and also very tenative to add another baby to the mix.  Libby is energy enough for me and now I'm going to have another baby to take the rest of my energy.  Well I'll let you all know about how Monday goes.

Loves.

11 days and counting...

I love knowing that I'm going to have a baby on the 20th of July, when I go in and now what to expect.  I wish I felt more prepared and settled, but I still feel like there's a ton to do, which isn't true either.  Just the anticipation of adding another little person into our family and still having to run after Libby.  She is excited too, but I think she doesn't understand and wants to know why everyone keeps asking her about the baby.  I wish that somedays I had her energy to run all day, literally, and still not need any sort of nap time or down time after. 

The bad thing about having this baby in July though is we're missing the big Cotant camping trip, which honestly is ok with me some years.  Every year of going an entire week with no shower and no where to put Libby down for a nap without her getting heat stroke.  Actually it's nice to get away for a couple of days, like the last 3 days of the week, but the entire week is alot with young kids. 

So everyone in blogging world, pray for my sanity that I don't kill Libby after the baby comes and that we can actually choose a name and not kill each other.

Memorial Day.

So I've never been a fan of Memorial Day, it was a nice 4 day weekend, but my family never did anything.  Then I met Nate and married him and now we go and decorate graves in Rockland, American Falls, and Swan Lake.  If you don't know where some of these places are, it's ok neither did I, but they're some of my favorite places now.  I love being with his family and doing stuff together.

Pictures of the new baby boy.

Can't wait to meet you little guy!!!!

This is my girl.

I have never done pictures yet, so I finally figured it out and decided to put some pictures of my most favortie girl ever.

These were taken in April and I love her to death.

Final Show...

My mom had her final dance recital on Saturday and it was good. I had some major firsts that night, I have never sat in the front row and helped the dancers, I was always off stage right helping the girls come on. It went off without a ton of hitches, one of my classes didn't get their props and another almost didn't get their props. It was pretty scary but you become a professional and do what you need to do and just do it without it. My mom was pretty emotional, but I really don't think she's ready to "retire". She really wants to teach Libby and so maybe we'll have dance lessons for just her. It was pretty sad to see people that you may never see again and have come to love, but I'm ready to be done and raise my kids and not have to work anymore. I've loved it while it lasted, but I'm so ready to be done and do new things!!!

Inspired!!

I love being inspired by people and then sharing with others my inspiration or inspirations.

1. Molly Landon - She is the most talented photographer and I love the way she makes my skin look flawless. (Actually that's my all time most favorite part). She has this everything is gonna be ok, even if the world is crumbling and I'm super busy, halo around her. She is awesome and you need to check out her photography at mollylandonphoto.blogspot.com.

2. Molly's sisters - This entire family is super uber talented, but these girls make head-bands and they are ultra cute. Plus they are some of the most warm and hillarious people you will ever meet. Check them out at
navyperl.blogspot.com.

3. I don't remember her name, but I found her blog on Allie Palmer's and then Molly showed me a video that they have done about her. Check her out at nieniedialouges.blogspot.com. If you feel like motherhood is monotonous and boring and you don't find real pleasure out of it, listen to her story.

4. Good and chill out music. I love you and have a love relationship with finding good music I can chill out to, but sometimes I need that heavy metal or alternative punk or rock to get my blood flowing. Especially in the mornings.

5. Libby! She drives me crazy sometimes, but that girl can crack me up or make me cry in the blink of an eye. I can't wait to watch her grow up and have a testimony and an awesome personality that I know she already has.

6. My mommy, Stacey is the bomb.com. She is the most giving and charitable human being I have ever met, to bad I'm to much like my dad and not more like her. She is the calm in the storm and really the storm is me, so she calms my soul often and helps me to sort through whatever is going on.

Love to you all or that thing I mentioned!!!

Nate Graduated.

I don't know if you've ever felt those times in your lives when you are so proud of either an accomplishment of you or others, but Nate graduated on May 8th and I couldn't help feeling this overwhelming sense of pride and gratitude for him. Then you start looking at the program and seeing people who graduated with him and realize there are people you haven't seen in forever and yet are still in your home-town going to school.

Also congrats to my cousin Katie, she graduated too and now she's free and breezy to have a baby.

Hanging out With Family is Awesome!!!!

My cousin Toni is moving to Nashville on the 27th of this month and we got to see family I don't see very often. I often forget that they are the best and my biggest support system, I know that's terrible to admit but when they live farther away, and farther I mean Idaho Falls; I know really far, you just tend to see the family here and forget those who are farther from your minds but not your heart. I wish I was better at keeping up with people like friends, family, and extended family, but I am who I am and try to be the best but sometimes I fail in places I need to be better.

So to my friends:
I love you sooooo much. You are always there for me to listen and sometimes I'm not there for you. I hope you know that whenever you need a listening ear or a night out I will always be there.

To my family:
I would not survive without you, especially this last month. I was a frazzled mess and yet you kept me sane and grounded and never judged me. I hope you know that I love you more than anything.

To my extended family:
You are the craziest people I've ever met and I know that I belong right there with you. I laugh and cry with you and it helps me to know that I'm human, but don't have to do it on my own. Thank you for all you are and what you do.

Love,
Beth

Ending Some Things...

We had our very last dance competition in Malad yesterday. It's bitter sweet to see this ending, but my mom and I were talking about it on the ride home and we know that it's time to stop now. But I am sad for those parents and kids that have to decide to conform to what is "norm" in the dancing world. The costumes, music and dance moves are becoming more and more mature and we were almost that little podunk studio that covered a specific niche for those people that felt the same way we did. I have been thinking alot about this since Libby is getting to that age where I want her to start dance if she wants to, but I don't want her to feel like she's giving up something just to have to participate. I guess I'm just old fashioned, but I don't think there's anything wrong with that, I like the feeling that I can have control over what my child particpates and doesn't to an extent. I've seen too many girls who have given up something just to fit in and dance somewhere that's "popular". I hope that there are more people who feel like I do and not the other way.

Been Awhile...

We're doing awesome and I can't believe Nate is almost graduated. He'll technically be done next week with all his papers and then I think he has one final during finals week he has to take. I love that guy and all his hard work for us!!!

I Just Read Another Blog...

and it totally spoke to me. There are days when I just want to throw my child in the street and let her survive and see how she does. Yesterday I was awoken, because Nate is sooo awesome to get up with Libby and let me sleep in during pregnancy months, to a crash and breaking glass of one of our bowls. I realize that Libby is done with her breakfast and instead of telling us she's done, she decides to show us with physical force. Well after wetting my bed and then having Nate clean up the mess, I was composed and calm. Then fast forward 8 hours and she's in my sister in law Emily's room and I find her playing with nail polish, on herself and the carpet. Ok, so that one did not go over well with me and I flew off the handle a little bit and wanted to inflict some pain on the little child that I knew I loved deep down inside, but was hard to love right then. Now to today, she decides that not getting enough yelling and finger-pointing and no-noing from mom was enough, she decides that this morning she's gonna throw that bowl and shatter another one again!!!! I decide that we need some major time apart, I mean half an hour in her crib and away from me while I fume and not do what I have previously mentioned, you know about the street and surviving. I can tell you that motherhood is amazing and I love it, somedays I wonder if it's worth my blood-pressure being so high, but I am amazed at this little person who loves me no matter how much finger pointing and yelling I do at her. I wish I was better, but I know that screwing up and yelling and wanting to inflict pain, not really inflicting pain but wanting, is ok. I have finally let myself know that it's ok to be human. I work to becoming Mother Teresa, but I'm not and really don't want to be anyway, she sounds boring!! Kidding about that last statement. I hope this helps someone else today, because I want to thank Kimber for posting what she had to say.

We Made It Home!!

Come and check out my pictures on facebook, because I still need to go over to my friend's house and figure out the pic thing. It was awesome!!! I want to live there sooo badly. I know how people feel about the water and the greenery and everything. I just want to have 40 or above weather all the time and the rain is my favorite. We don't ever get that in Poky. I definitely don't have a travelling baby, but she loved the beach which is another reason to need to move there. I can't wait to go back and see more of what we missed.

A side note I just found out this morning I'm having a boy.

Totally Stoked for Oregon

We're going to Oregon on Saturday and I can't even wait. I want to be there now, but I will wait the 60 hours or so before we actually get to. I think I'm so excited because it's going somewhere I've never been and seeing things I've never seen and doing something really exciting with people I love. My family is going, mom, dad, Spencer, Mos, Tom and Juliene. I love this group of people and actually think I could spend this entire week with them and not want to throw myself off the second story balcony. I'm just so glad to be getting away from all this chaos surrounding Nate and I right now. We wouldn't even be thinking about going if my awesome and most generous parents weren't paying for the rental house. Sometimes you just feel like you can't get away no matter what circumstance in life and then when you do, you appreciate and hype if up so big it's probably the best vacaction you've had in forever.

New Group I LOVE!!

Listen to the new songs I fell in love with, the name of the group is Vedera and I saw them on the Ellen Show. Enjoy!!

Please help me.

I am trying to download pictures to my blog but I'm retarded and not smarter than the blogger.

Please send you help!!!!

The funny Things Kids Say.

So my mom watches Libby on Tuesdays while I teach dance. She was giggling as she walked back into the house, she said that she put Libby in the 2 kid cart that's a car or an animal and she was telling my mom that she suck. My mom didn't understand at first, thought I was teaching her bad words, then realized she was saying stuck. She laughed through the whole store and kept asking her if she was stuck and Libby would say, "yeah, I suck."

HILLARIOUS!!!

A Much Needed Weekend.

You know when you're getting cranky and lazy and feeling nasty and then someone says to you, "let's go..." and all of a sudden there's life being breathed back into your bones? Yeah that was Nate and I this weekend. Not a long trip to Utah but one that was needed and we didn't even realize it. We went to the SLC temple and then had food with my parents, Tom and MOlly and Spen. The next day they went to the temple and we went to Ensign peak and did the Mormon thing around temple square. It didn't even matter that it was raining and freezing, we were just happy to be doing something. Then we went to Rodizio's and Karl Malone was there. Awesome! Didn't have the guts to say anything or do anything, but it was still cool. I think it was the first star encounter I've ever had in my life. Not a long trip but I was so excited like a kid to just get out of Poky and to somewhere new.
Happy Valentine's Day everyone.

Pregnancy and Motherhood.

So I'm offically the worst mother in the entire world. The other day Nate had gone skiing with the Special Olympics and I was home alone with Libs. Now I usually wake up at about 8:30 and let Nate get Libby and lay in bed until 9 but she woke up at 7:00 a.m. I was so tired and I didn't want to get up so I thought if I let her cry then she'll go back to sleep and I'll sleep and yadada. Well that didn't happen and when I finally dragged myself out of bed she was so distraught thinking that I had left her or that we had abandoned her that all she wanted to do was be held for like an hour. Who does that? Who abandons their child in their own home and lets them cry and let them think they have been abandoned? Well apparently that's me. Oh well, I will live to see another bad mothering day, but for now all I am is me.

So I got the sweetest letter from my sister. Molly you are the best, I love you.

Lost Night.

I know I shouldn't be such a
fanatic and buy the season on DVD and all
that jazz, but I love this show and sue
me. Premiere tonight at 7 pm. WOO.

Sorry about the lapse, again.

So I'm excited to write about what's been going on. We have had a much better month than last and I'm grateful for everything my life gives me, but sometimes I feel like the we're just loaded on. The pregnancy is going awesome, we're having problems with medicaid and no insurance but we'll figure it out and I know it will all be ok. It's hard in this economy with insurance companies doing whatever they please to whoever they please. We're gonna get it all taken care of and this baby's gonna be happy and healthy. Well at least healthy. Went and saw Avatar about a week ago. Sometimes I just hate hype with music and movies and books. Then when I do attempt to watch it or read it I've already analyzed it to death and then it's not as good as it could've been. It was alright, but holy crap did anyone else feel all the political crap that was in it?

Libby is hillarious lately, she takes my phone and pretends to talk to her cousin Josselyn and she laughs with her and tells her, "I know, I know..." She has her mom's personality, which sometimes isn't the best. I didn't realize how being a mom would show me all my flaws in what I do and how I act or teach Libby. I think she forgives me but sometimes I think that she looks at me and is like lay off mommy.

I can't wait for summer, I mean it feels like it anyway we might as well go camping like it is. Plus it'll be closer to my due date then and I'll have this critter out of my body.