I'm ready to vent, because I have time.

I'm ready to vent about the statuses of the dance studios in Pocatello and surrounding areas.  Let me start by saying there are good ones, but then you have to sell a child to pay for it.  I have to say that I hate the Gateway Foundation for Theater and Dance.  Just the dance end of it, I have never taken Libs to the theater end of it.  The owner is flighty and her dance staff, except my mom, is awful.  I'll just tell you a few of things I hate.

1.  I had to pay for a leotard and tights, HAD to.  Not even for a costume either, just to buy it.  The lady who's son takes from my mom had to pay a $30 cleaning fee for a shirt for her son, rip off.

2.  Those leotards were back ordered for 4 months.  My daughter will only get to wear her leotard and tights from January to May.  So I'm pretty pissed about that.

3.  The owner is never there.  Neither is her office assistant.  So one of the kids that waits for my mom's class after Libby's got stuck in the bathroom.  But wait no office assistant, so I had to kick in the door.  Am I paying for that door, h$#@ NO.

4.  It is super expensive to go there, it's a non-profit.  Interrpretation, I have to pay for someone and myself to dance here.  STUPID!!!!

Please do not dance at the Gateway, save yourself a headache and a butt ache!  DON'T DANCE WITH THE GATEWAY.
Do you think I'm pretty upset, yes.  You would have guessed right.  Have a nice day, because I actually feel better.

Our tiny dancer. (No pun intended, but appropriate)

 

 My mom teaches dance over at the Gateway for Theatre and Dance.  Not my favorite place and will never recommend it, but that's a different post. 

She danced to Bing Crosby's "It's a Marshmallow World".

There are 5 kids in her class, but her and this little blonde girl were the only 2 that would get up there.

It was awesome, she was hillarious!!!  Love my tiny dancer.

stomachs

Not feeling well, pray for me.  I get super cranky and impatient with my kids when this happens to me.  I know it has nothing to do with them, but having something "wrong" or just out of ordinary makes it so hard to be good.

Introducing...

Our new computer and it is now connected to the internet.  Yeah, so here's some pics from the birthday!

A good friend.

I've grown up with no sisters, no emotion; or you're the erratic emotional one all the time.  No switching clothes, no stealing each other's boyfriends, no late night phone calls, no hanging out when she comes into town.  No default shopping buddy, no reason to leave Pocatello.  I do have, however, an amazing friend.  She is the most amazing person I've ever known and luckily our husbands are friends as well.  She asks me to go and have a girl's night with her.  She brings me milkshakes and talks for a good chunk of the night when my husband is gone.  We cry for each other, when the other is sad.  We know what each other is going through, because weirdly enough we are probably going through the exact same thing.  We watch each other's kids even though one of us just had a baby, like a week ago.  (thank you!)  This friend just recently, yesterday, had a procedure done and I'm praying for her to get better soon.  I look at her as a sister.  Literally!  Someone I could go to and talk and she would make time for it.  Someone who understands what is to be a single mom sometimes because she's been there as well.  Someone who feels my pain, even if she hasn't been there.  I love this sister, I wished I had a sister, but I love having a best friend.

Still no computer, pictures coming soon.

4th Birthday.

My number 1 gal is 4 today!  She's sooo grown and sassy as can be, yet has the sweetest temperament when she wants to.  We're in between computers but when I get it up and running you can see the then and now of all 4 birthdays!!!!  Lib I love yeah girl.

4th Birthday.

My number 1 gal is 4 today!  She's sooo grown and sassy as can be, yet has the sweetest temperament when she wants to.  We're in between computers but when I get it up and running you can see the then and now of all 4 birthdays!!!!  Lib I love yeah girl.

More, more pictures.

DISCLAIMER:

I'm not professional, that said I took some people's pictures again.  My good friends the Lamberts had won a free 1 hour photo shoot from a fundraiser that our ward was doing, so...

Again, please refer to the disclaimer, but I love this family and it was so fun!

Plan on Him.

So in my short 28 years of life, I've learned one thing; you can make plans and yet there's always a bigger and better plan going on.  For example, I always wanted to go to Broadway, looked into schools in Wyoming and BYU to get my musical theater degree.  You know that nagging feeling that tells you that something isn't right?  Well the Holy Ghost, nagging feeling, was the one telling me that it wasn't right.  So what did I do?  Went on a mission to Japan and gained a stronger and more intense testimony of the gospel.  Am I perfect?  H*** NO!  sorry.  But I know that a bigger and better plan was out there for me.

I planned on going to BSU after my mission and what happened?  The nagging feeling!  So what did I end up doing?  Going to ISU, a little bit of a down-grade, ok a huge down-grade but I met Nate.  A bigger and better plan was out there.

So I think you know where this is heading, what were you planning on and didn't end up happening?  Nate and I love our kids and want the ultimate best for them, just like all parents do.  About 6 months ago I had a miscarriage and lost a precious spirit of our Heavenly Father's.  I don't know the bigger and better plan, but I know that I love and appreciate my kids and Nate so much more, because I know the lose that comes from it.  I never thought I would write about this, but I felt that I needed to.  Maybe it's part of the bigger and better plan for someone out there.  I have a strong conviction, I like to call a testimony, that I will see that sweet baby again.  I will be with him/her forever and we will be an eternal family, living with my Heavenly Father forever.

I'm grateful to be able to plan on Him and His bigger and better plan.  God loves us, He tests us, but He loves us.  He wants us to be happy, but He wants us to be what He wants us to be.  So sometimes that means a little hurt and pain.  For some of us we have a lot of hurt and pain.  If you feel like you can't do it, you want help, please come to one of our churches, The Church of Jesus Christ of Latter-Day Saints.  So, yes I'm a Mormon or a Latter-Day Saint.  I'm proud to be one and I'm grateful for the peace and love it brings into my life.  God cares for you, I know it!

http://jesuschrist.lds.org/SonOfGod/eng/

Happy Halloween

So, Halloween...

Again not my favorite holiday, but we actually did a whole bunch of stuff this year.

 This is Libby, Scotty Porter and Jane Porter at the Zoo Boo!  Libby is Punky Brewster, but nobody got it and her real costume wasn't done yet.

 Harrison loving being a giraffe!

 Look at my face, classic.

 This is the Porter's new baby Parley.  So cute!

 Our pumpkin we carved.  We did it with a screwdriver, pretty awesome!

This is her real costume, she was a princess.  Can't be anything but.

This is the costume that almost killed Harrison.  You can't see on there very well, but there's little flowers we glued on there.  Harrison got a hold of the bottle and ingested some.  The bottle said to drink fluids liberally and seek medical attention.  So I called poison control, everyone was busy.  Called Dr. Burton's office, lunch break.  So for an hour at the ER sat Harrison and I.  Not so bad, but pretty long day.  Anyway, Halloween was good for our family!!

Hating this Holiday.

I hate Halloween, yes I said it.  I hate the costumes and the fact that I have to buy candy and costumes or make one.  I am a terrible idea person and I wish I could sew and be crafty, but unfortunately I'm not and so my children must suffer and dislike it like I do or get their own costume.  Oh well someday I'll get into it.

Missing Him.

Missing my husband.  

Missing his presence in our house.

Missing how he plays with kids before dinner.

Missing the lame jokes he pulls.

Missing hearing his voice, not over a phone.

Missing the person to warm the other side of the bed.

Missing how he lets me put my cold feet in between his to warm them up.

Missing him.

He's in Twin Falls, just so you know.

Don't Judge

Ok, so my first big thing as a YW's president.  YW in Excellence, I'm usually cool and calm and collected and just try to go with the flow.   But I'm not sure what it is but once people look at what I've put to together or if I feel a little pressure or even judgement, I do a little freak down.  Yes, freak down.  What is this strange phenomenon?  Well it's when I get really super introverted and that's not me, then I stress over things that I have no control over.  The bishop called away and didn't get back for closing remarks, well a little heart attack and then I realized a parent was the 2nd counselor in the bishopric.  I got it together but not before I'm pretty sure I put myself into shock.  Well it's done and I'm glad, but now I have New Beginnings and a HUGE fundraiser coming up.  So if I go into freak down, please approach with care and caution.

Sincerely,
beth

Blessed Silence...

Do you hear that?  Me neither.  Do you know what that sound is?  That sound that only mothers and innkeepers absolutely love and adore?  Yes, silence.

Silence
By Bethany Coffin

That time of the day when everything is still,
I've given my kids that special pill.
The hour or so that it lasts
The only noise in some places is rats.
Give me sweet serenity and peace and order.
Just in case they get out of hand again, maybe a mortar?
God blessed us with beautiful amounts of silence and quiet.
After that it's fights and riots.

Love me some blessed silence.

Thank you, it's a master-piece and the inner thoughts of my dark soul.
Me and Nat King Cole think this time of the day is Unforgettable.

The Coffin Family Pics.

Pretty cute family, huh?

More pictures.

 Ok, so this is Tess Lambert and I took her and her brother's pictures, but got her parents in there too.

 This is my super, uber talented sister-in-law Molly.  She let me come with her on a shoot.  They were the cutest couple!!

After much thought...

and prayer mind you, Isaac is not staying with us until December, he is leaving on the 10th.  It has been completely different this time, he isn't as busy as he was in the summer and his dance isn't his life anymore.  What does that equal, a really lonely and sullen kid that I am not equipped to handle or understand.  He is awesome, so no one get any ideas that way, he is just a teenager and I'm not in the stage yet.  But this is not why he's leaving, it was a decision with me and the mother.  I hope them the best and want him to succed in his dream, because he has a HUGE dream.  Love you Isaac!

This Morning...

So what are your kids doing this morning?

Just Screwin' Around

Took some of my friend's family pictures, what do you think?

The Return of Isaac.

We will have Isaac coming back to live with us for 4 months, actually 3 weeks on and 1 week off.  Why you might ask?  Because we have felt it is the right thing to do.  Other than that, no reason.  We're not getting paid very much and really it's not about that, it's just right.  You know those times when the Lord lets you know that something is gonna be ok?  Yeah this is one of them.  Let you know how it goes and pics will come soon.  Plus I need to tell you about GG weekend.

GG Weekend.

Alright everybody listen up and pay attention.  This is important.  I am leaving this next weekend to one of my most favorite things ever.  Gucker Girls Weekend.  This year I'm making shirts and pics will come soon, then you can be totally jealous of me and my awesomeness.

Pics I took at the park.

So I looked like a creeper taking these pictures of ward members kids, but I had fun and I think I'm going to make a seperate blog of pictures that I take.  I kind of like it, but don't even think that I'm good like my sister in law.  She's the expert.  I just like it, but enjoy.

I'm sooo blessed.

I have felt lately that life has been very good after the "storm".  I've been happy, content and mostly just happy.  I also remembered that to be this way you must do your part, pray, read, serve, etc.

I miss my Primary kids.  I was thinking about them the other day.  I hope their teacher is helping and nurturing their testimonies.  That is a sacred responsiblity, to teach the children of the church is something you need to take and keep in your hearts forever.  The 1st counselor in our Primary presidency told me it's the only place in the church you can hold up a picture of Jesus and you will get an excited answer of, "THAT'S JESUS!!!"  It was the and is the best calling.

Now I am more blessed to work and nurture and potentially save Young Women, but mostly just look inside yourself and trust in the Lord that He knows what they need.  These Young Women show me what it is to be a true missionary and how to love each other no matter who or where they are from.  I look at some of these Young Women and see some of the situations they are in and hope and pray they survive without being scarred tooo badly.

Then my family.  My kids are the BOMB.  Harrison loves me unconditionally, Libby makes me laugh and they both look at me and have that way to communicate with me, it's the best.  Nothing can replace that, nothing.  Not only my kids but my husband who supports and loves me and cries with me during the hard times.  He is my everything.

I have soooo much to be thankful for, but I know when I see a longer post I just skim through it, so...

I am blessed.

My boy is 1!

Check out the fun.

Harrison is now 1 ya'll.  He survived in the house of crazy to the ripe old age of 1.  With Libby it truly felt like a success to have her be 1.

Girls Camp

Ok, so went to Girl's Camp and came back and this is the run down of it. 

laughed, alot.

giggled, a little.

NO sleep.

hiking.

mosquitos.

NO sleep.

skits.

mosquitos.

Food!!!

bonding with girls and acting 16 again, best part.

Then our friends the Jensens are moving to Florida so had a BBQ the day after I got back from no sleep camp.

AND, it's this boy's first birthday today.  More to come later.